Ranting (Mood Swing Post)

There must be something wrong with me these few days. Nothing seem to be interested. Not movies not work, not internet, nothing. It gets even worse after lunch hours. All i want to do is just crash. And maybe get drunk. What type of alcohol you ask? To me it doesn't matter anymore.

I desperately need to get my car serviced before the coming new year so i can make it to the Sepang drive. But i'm so blardy lazy to do anything. Usually shopping could cure every women's mood swings. Mine can't. I have no mood to shop. I just wanna get drunk, on the air cond, tucked in the blanket and sulk.

I need to get new suspension. I need a very stiff-till-you-vomit suspension. But i still have a very large bill to clear. Everyone is asking for the damn increment. Where's mine? Did the theboss forgot mine when i fight for the rest of the team? Seeing what i did recently, it's not that i really need an increment, that but it's good to have. Who will decline one? I think i spent alot of time for work. Even after work. I watch movies after work, because i'm working. I spend money on sms because i was talking to the bosses. I hate going to the cinemas and looking at the showtimes, then i realized that i've watch every damn single movie. Damn it.

When will i be getting a team that will work based on logic. I don't want to be working with a piece of rock. I hate to repeat instructions over & over again. I hate making decisions. I made so much that i hate doing that after work.

And only recently i know that i look like i'm gonna eat the colleagues whenever they see my face. I didn't know i looked fierce. No wonder no one dare to ask me things. I wish i can scared the boss. Only if he's looking at me like the rest of the colleagues. How long could it be before i take over? And can i do that? I dunno. A colleague just got head hunted. And from our discussion it's probably we are not getting any share as promised, as least not so soon. There's still other shareholders that need to sign the damn paper.
But i think, i better not get it. I really duwan to blog another mood swing post every single day.

I need to get rid of this stupid mood swings. I need, my alcohol.